Hitting My Knees

On my knees, in the bathroom stall, praying for strength, grace, passion, courage, and healing. Praying that God will come to me, that the Holy Spirit will come and fill me up on the inside. Forced to hit my knees on a dirty bathroom floor, in a stall, in a college restroom.

And I am coming to find, no matter where the location, no matter when the time or place, finding a place to surrender to Jesus in sweet harmony, and holy surrender is often times just what I need.

First thing in the morning, after my feet hit the ground, my knees should be next.

Before bed, before my head hits the pillow, my knees should hit first.

Prayer is how I find my strength and my value. Going off of a sermon taught at Grand Canyon University on Monday morning chapel, The Pastor reminded the congregation to Pray Regularly, Pray Humbly and Pray Privately.    

Prayer can by hard, and is often times extremely discouraging. In my own journey with recovery I have found myself very angry with God. Why does his word promise us that if we ask the door will open, and if we seek we will find? Often times I feel like I ask and I ask, with no outcome. No recovery.

During the same Monday morning chapel, the pastor described the two way conversation with God and human, and how it works during prayer. He described it in a way that finally made sense to me, and I am sharing it with you all in hopes that it bring some of that same enlightenment into your recovery.

While Praying....

1.    If the request if wrong God says No

2.    If the timing is wrong God says Slow

3.    If you are wrong God says Grow

4.    If the request is right God says GO

 Gods plan is HIS PERFECT AND PLEASING PLAN FOR OUR LIVES.

So I will close us with this proposition: Although recovery seems impossible, and often times endless, let’s keep praying, whether our request are wrong or right. Let’s continue to pray for Wisdom and Healing. Let’s all remember to continue hitting our knees.


Romans 8:26
²⁶ In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.